Over the summer, I read a book called "Humility
True Greatness" by C.J. Mahaney.
The book
was about looking at where there is pride in your life; I definitely recommend
this book to read! It was a really challenging book to read, mainly because a
lot of the issues he was coming up with I hadn’t even thought of as pride.
Even now,
as I am thinking back on the book and some of the situations, which he brought
up, I am seeing that I have failed, even within these short months… that’s
humbling!
My goal
is to truly live in a way that I am humble first. It seems to me that a lot of
issues, conflicts, or disagreements are because of proud stubbornness. What is
the point in holding on to these destructive ways? So many times, I just want
to brush this topic aside and say, "I’m not that bad" and then I look
in the mirror and I see I am. My heart is not pure.
The only
way to get over this, is truly turning to Jesus and saying sorry for thinking
that I can do it all myself and what I can’t do myself isn’t important. The
things I can’t do by myself are the most important.
I have to
give over my pride to the foot of the cross, and lay it down, bare, and see it,
as it is, in all its displeasing, ugly and destructive ways. This is not an
easy thing to do. In fact, I am still learning to leave things at the foot of
the cross and not carry them on my back all day, everyday.
The best
thing is, God will fill the black hole with His forgiveness, love and presence,
which is worth so much more than holding on to something that just eats away at
you until you are rotten inside. Knowing that I need Jesus to get me
through my days and that I cannot survive without Him is so crucial for
me. Knowing that I am living for Him, I am carrying His name around with
me and I have to understand that doing this means something. I have to know
that pride drives away my relationship with Jesus.
"When
pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom."
Proverbs 11:2
Be
strong and take heart,
Butterflies
& Rubies
J
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